it's the tiny, noticeable things which mattered.

as much as i am an individualist, i could not stand how the way things work.

it's not that i don't want to belong as a team, but it's like everything is set. and things will remain as it is.

when the impression has been made, nothing can be changed. one's absence means inconsistent while the other, mean a busy schedule.

who am i to blame for this whirl of confusion. let's just say that things often don't work out the way it's supposed to be, the more you want it.

though this can be proven wrong in other aspects of life.


on a lighter note, even though i hold no grudges against anyone, as long as you irritate my friends (or me) it is only natural that i treat you with a different tone. okay this is not a 'lighter note'. anyway i have chosen to 'let go'. so long, there.

on a happy note, tickets have been booked with sponsorship from my mum. the whole holiday trip has turn into a 360 degree change, which is a good thing in a sense, and a bad thing in the money sense. money aside, as it can be earned, a holiday trip with a group of friends, what more can one ask for?

have a good holiday~
teehee.

love it when statuses are confirmed.

hate it when dreams were so real but would never come true.

first time buying sth from an online blogshop and it didn't turn out to be so well. totally not surprised.

firstly the color differs quite a bit. they reply to e-mails damn slow and did not reply my question in full. when i asked about the 2 items, they only replied to one. totally didnt' read my e-mail properly. when i got the package, there's sth wrong with the zip. one after another. super pissed off with them seriously.

on a lighter note, no more projects, ever. shiok! but i can't get the stone off my chest still. kept having the feeling of 'something not done' argh. must be too used to feeling that way haha.

can't wait for end of school.

konnichiwa, watashi wa katherine desu. (:

i really had too little sleep such that i've been sleeping the whole of my sunday.

let's embrace the deadlines =(

I've always noticed this yellow bike parking at the end of the staircase leading to the lift to my door step. There's a big 23 in blue on the bike. Today is the day where I went to look at the plate number. Guess what? It's FJ 1123 Z. Just the exact number I would like on my plate.

The owner is a malay around 30 years old who has a female partner, also a malay.

!!!

the movie is really crappy. the book is acceptable at least but the movie? fast forwarded okay, shortened speech okay, but the flow is totally messed up and their acting cannot make it.

all the more i am not going to watch this twilight saga. change of directors doesn't make a difference.

http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0913587/

actually Paul Wesley is soooooooo much better than Robert Pattinson.

Vampire Diaries & Smallville.

i've finished Special A.
waiting for D.Gray-Man, perhaps i should switch to manga.
no more worth remembering.... oh & Vampire Knight.

shall not attend school for obvious reasons.
let's embrace our free day (:

time to sleep earlier and do project!
time to change some habits....

can't wait for Japan & Taiwan.
cant wait to apply at SIA.
i should probably find a peoples relations job first though. =(

target: earn money to pay off all the whatever debts this family has.
save money for taiwan (ONLY)
be an air stewardess
save up for Audi R8? Mazda convertible? see how it goes. maybe lamborghini!

first target - kawasaki 200cc for 1-2 years.

(:



if you think you understand me you are wrong. i doubt anyone does. perhaps a few who know of my character and personalities and freedom of speech and inference skills. different people know different things i guess.


i used to think age gap is a very big gap. it simply separates us - be it friendship or love. however, i was suddenly enlightened by the fact that age does not tie down love. perhaps a gap of 9 is no big deal after all. well, changsong thinks that way too. be it 6 or 8, it's just how it goes. i'm not a girl fantasizing, just thought that well, he, could just be the one. but i may not be his, haha.

??? ???

是時候了… 只剩下少過兩個月的時間，我們就正式和這十六年的學業告一段落了。

我應該感到悲傷，還是興奮呢？

其實我還蠻期待的。期待無所事事，自由自在的生活，會是怎樣的呢？

你們也很盼望這一天吧！讀了數十年的書，終于能擺脫它們了！！

其實我還隱約地記得從幼稚園到小學到中學到理工學院的呈長階段……

在幼稚園，我學會了一到十，數學一加一，母親節用紙巾做成玫瑰，有電腦可以用！

在小學，開始學習更有挑戰性的問題。第一次在學校表演講故事和題詩，學習珠算，科學實驗等等。我以前還可是參加中國舞蹈的課外活動呢！還有英語係團。表演對我而言可說是家常便飯！！

在中學，接觸到的更複雜，又是和社會有關聯的科目，可是還挺有趣的。以爲參加射擊，會很悠閒，誰知儅比賽接近時，練習是滔滔不絕的。但也好，因此和隊員產生了默契，都成了好朋友……

在理工學院，朋友不多，埃！不是我人緣不好，只是跟同學較少來往，很難熟哦。我是那種，要常來往，才會更友善，更親切的人。所以啦，有些事是沒辦法的。反而，近來和中學校友來往，覺得他們是一群很有意思的一棒，就混在一起啦！

畢業后，想做的事很多，但新的事也很多，但大多是怕賺不夠錢哈哈！ 我可是要買不同款式的車耶。都好貴哦！或是真是要嫁個有錢人才行了！

好了，呆會兒還要學摩托車，晚安！

婕嬪就此停筆.

On successful completion of training you will commence flying duties.

emotions aside. i don't want to further agitate my situation. really, i want to put in my best performance and then recuperate slowly. i know now better than to simply ignore. even though in terms of social i'm not so good at it, the fire is still there. it's dim but it's ever lasting. nothing can bring me down even my own laziness.

selfishness, is the trait of every human being. that's why i don't hope to see any change but even if there is, i guess whatever you do too long, eventually you will get bored. moreover, it would only further agitate my current situation no matter which side i take. so, in the end, i shall abandon my responsibility.....

i have a feeling it'll take some time to get over it. shifting responsibility is such an irresponsible act.

明月几时有？把酒问青天。
不知天上宫阙，今夕是何年。
我欲乘风归去，唯恐琼楼玉宇，高处不胜寒。
起舞弄清影，何似在人间？
转朱阁，低绮户，照无眠。
不应有恨，何事长向别时圆？
人有悲欢离合，月有阴晴圆缺，此事古难全。
但愿人长久，千里共婵娟。

—— 苏轼《水调歌头·丙辰中秋》

06/06/2008 - 3 years

14/06/2009 - 1 year

26/12/2009 - 1 year

Thank you...

Thank you for the times we shared.
You made the bad days not so bad.

Thank you for your smiles, you frowns.
You bring life to my empty town.

Thank you for making me tear.
You help me realise my weakness and my fear.

Thank you for hating me in the end,
I learn to be humble as a wretch.

With love, I so much gratitude.

lol. always the same place. always the same time.

always, never meet.

today i watched 向日葵的約定.

i feel so cheated. i thought it was a drama! not just some 80 min one-time show. man, that show was so brilliant;

fast paced, good storyline, touching, inspiring, etc.

i find the casts have really good chemistry, and that the male actor is actually good-looking haha.

i feel so cheated it ended without warning. i was looking at the clock, waiting for it to end and CONTINUE next week.

the show was brilliant. their love was strong. NO ENDING.

=(

it's not over.

was my parcel. [S$73.71]

I came home from Eden's place, no, after his friend's place, I saw a package in my room!

Turns out, my dad checked our mailbox and it was in.

(:

hahaha i'm not over you.

the song is nice.

MERRY, MERRY CHRISTMAS.

LONELY, LONELY CHRISTMAS!

我爱过的人
没有一个留在身边
寂寞他陪我过夜

the lyrics are so nice.

Wow, I've never realized this till now -

Secondary One, before the start of a new school term, my family took me to Queenstown to purchase my new school shoes (sports shoes). You know how that place is known to have cheap sports shoes. My first pair was New Balance - cost about $105.

Then during Secondary Three after our Resilience Camp, it was really necessary to find a new pair of footwear as a replacement. Then, I got my eyes on the Nike brand - approximately $83.

There was a day I saw this pretty pair of Adidas walking shoes at Sportslink. After much consideration, I bought it home to find it too tight for long journeys. It was the one and only pair left in my size, I had to get it LOL. Plus, I love the design - cost me $80 or so.

It's been a while. I've always had a good impression on Converse. So on that fateful day, I saw this white color base with the logo in black. I tried it and bought it - about $80.

Since I threw away my sports shoes after a training camp, I needed another pair for running (NAPFA). You have absolutely no idea how much I fell in love at first sight of this very Asics Gel Nimbus 10 in purple. Well, I bought 11 in the end as it was more stylish. With discount at Sportslink - $186, about there, plus I get to buy a green shoe bag for $1!

This day, I finally set my mind on Lee Cooper's Vell, red color, since there is none my size for the Leena model. Surprisingly there was a 20% discount wow - only $39.90 hahahahaha. My first red shoes. Sounds a bit eerie though.

To sum it up, currently I own Adidas, Converse, Asics, Lee Cooper. All for different purposes and all branded hah. My slippers - OP, Havaianas, DMK. I really should revise on where my money is going to............

2 weeks of separation, it feels like the same problem persisted. so, should i let it go?

my disk degragmenter has been operating for 5 hours, at least. it shouldn't take so long when there is NOTHING on it. well, i did put in some stuffs.... Okay, it was close to 80GB of stuffs. Argh fine whatever. Time for new clothing!!

4 projects, 1 sip report. where shall i start???????????????????????????????????????//


HELP ME I'M GOING CRAZY LOL

not really. i'm CAPABLE of doing this. just need 10 more ME. or TEN TIMES more TIME. that would settle it, for sure.

i've been staying home on saturdays from who knows when. i used to go out every week lol. the thing is i don't remember often with who other than jerome. BORING. i need a life man.

can i press that replay button? we'll start anew, again. not the awkward silences now.

3 years of singlehood throughout poly. with friends who suffered break-ups and heartaches, friends are indeed the best one can ask for. if you ever got sick of any of them, were you even friends before? so much complaints why bother be friends. sometimes it's best to have lesser interaction for lesser arguments.

that's the end of poly life. okay, not bad, not that good. will a boyfriend make a difference? i doubt so actually. i'm pretty satisfied even though it's a cycle week after week. friends at lecture and lunch, friends after school for shopping or just chatting, friends for overnight mahjong, friends with never-ending flow of crap, occasional running/swimming, taekwondo over a period then stop and continue, friends i've met through special circumstances, friends who i can ask out last minute, and the list goes on. alright, what more can i expect. plus, i thought i lost a friend but i didn't. well, there are more i would wish to feel this way, hoping for that day. 10 years later hah.

when we grow up. will we meet?


ordered PX200 online. seller went MIA after paying. is the warranty international? wish he could mail me ASAP!

when you have too much time at hand...

we shall relax - not think too much.

let's have a new beginning, starting from new moon.

似雲非雲, 似劍非劍... 可稱為霸 - yun + right of sword
未成魔, 先變鬼
千年修道 不如一夜成魔

风云. what a superb show. no wonder the timings are so limited haha. i feel like i was reading a comic book. only actions no words. and the only speeches are actually quite redundant.


aiya. okay. start with my internal evaluation. the bad feeling came as early as early in the morning. as foreseen i've failed. well, it's just an evaluation, quite useless and free of charge. so i'm not bothered. the other one, i saw some comments and the only thing that could happen is what i thought that was. turns out it was, looking at the more obvious wordings. feel sad, but what can i do. i'm not even a friend. just feel sad for him as for someone of around my age. things have to be so cruel for an army guy. that's even saddening. how encouraging.

well take care. move on. don't take it too hard. all i can say is your friends will always be there for you. whoever you are you'll have friends. so, good for you.

with no feelings involved, everything would be so simple, again.

end.